I am really silly with Mr. ShuGar. The only other people I ever act like this with are my family. I sing to Mr. ShuGar random songs I make up in the moment; I do these funny dances right in front of him; I make up funny words or nicknames. All of this to get his attention and to just act playful in front of him. It’s a part of me I give to him for “his eyes” only. These bursts of silliness are little parts of me that I give to him.
One of the silly phrases I frequently tell Mr. ShuGar is this:
I’m going to put you in my pocket and take you with me all day.
It may sound cheesy, but I do literally want to insert Mr. ShuGar into my pocket and have him “be” with me all day. So much of my day is spent without him. So much of my day is spent with people I cannot be silly with because I need to be “professional.”
I daydream for a mini-Mr. ShuGar in my pocket because I want to carry that love with me throughout the day. I am constantly amazed at how cold and, frankly, how mean certain people can be. Our daily interactions with people can be jarring and sometimes upsetting when stress and conflict are involved. Whenever I want to escape any difficult situation, I fantasize pulling Mr. ShuGar from my pocket so that he can give me a hug and tell me, “Don’t worry. Everything is going to be ok. Remember, I love you.”
That’s all. Is there anything more special than that? In an instant, he can make everything all better.
I heard a song on the radio the other day that reminded me of this silly pocket phrase I tell Mr. ShuGar.
The song is called “Penny” by Hanni El Khatib and he sings about a penny he wants to keep in his pocket and never lose. Hanni repeats throughout the song, “You’re my perfect little penny. So please shine on.”
Mr. ShuGar is “my perfect little penny.” If only I could sneak him into my pocket so I could face life’s daily challenges with him by my side. He would be my little pocket secret. But for now, coming home after a long day of work to receive a hug and a kiss is as close to heaven as I am going to get.